Regret

Why do we hurt the people that we love? I always have this feeling deep inside me that says that I shouldn't hurt him. But I just cannot help myself. Sometimes I do it intentionally.. probably because I felt that he has hurt me badly, or because I felt that I have not been treated well.

I had a huge fight with him. I wasn't feeling too well.. and I had to sleep late to finish some office work that was due some time ago. But then, the twins decided to have some fun at 3 am in the morning. I was so tired to entertain them, so I begged him to look after them since he was not working the next day.. but he decided that sleep was more important. I simply couldn't help myself. I cried and cried and said bad things to him which I shouldn't have.

I regret saying those things to him. I regret hurting him. But I did. And I can never take back those words.. and I hurt him because I couldn't control myself.