Feeling Overly Guilty
Why do we sometimes do things that we are not supposed to do? The urge to do it was so strong. Although it wasn't really an act, but merely a thought, I still feel guilty about it. Whatever that has happened between me and this other person was in the past. And I have no right to even think about that person as I have already made a commitment to another person for the rest of my life. I shouldn't have done it.
I called that person's home later in the evening only to find out that this person recently moved into another phase in life.. getting married. And an unexplained feeling of remorse overwhelmed me. I am not sure if I felt happy, or sad.. or even jealous.. It was really weird, and it really scared me. What if my significant other found out about it? Would he believe me if I told him that now, more than ever, I love him even so? After this morning's incident, I just couldn't wait to hug my other half when he gets back. And I did. Passionately.
Have I committed a serious sin??? Am I wrong for thinking about my past???
posted by Maryam Syahriman @ 10:39 PM
1 Comments:
Hello Maryam. I found your blog on the web. Not trying to be intrusive, but I want you to know I've been very touched by your writings. You put such feeling into your words. I am a Christian woman living in the US. I have a husband and two sons. I work as a paralegal. My family is the most important part of my life. Your prayers to Allah are so special. Do you believe my God is the same as your Allah? I do. I hope we all worship the same Almighty One. Please forgive me if I have offended you. I just wanted to say thank-you for your sincerity. My name is Carole, but on the web I use "bookgoddess" because I love to read.
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