240 kms away from home

I am sitting here alone, 240 kilometers away from my twins. It is nearly midnight, and I just don't feel sleepy at all. I miss them. Too much. Lately, they haven't been very easy to deal with - probably because of the traveling. I called them this evening, right after the meeting, and they were crying - obviously after a fight. The younger twin didn't want to speak to me. She's probably holding a grudge against me for leaving her again. But the elder twin couldn't wait to speak to me. And when she spoke with a very sad voice, "kakak nak mama" (i want my mom) - i just couldn't control my tears. My husband, who was driving at that time, tried to speak to the elder one, "takpe.. nanti esok abah dan mama balik okay.. kakak jangan nangis ye..." (it's okay, we'll be back tomorrow, please don't cry). But she just cried and cried. I cried too. I hate being away from them.

And what makes things worse is that during the meeting today, the boss decided that I have to travel overseas again. Arghhh! Why me?? It won't take long - only 5 days so it won't be too bad. Yeah, right! I haven't really decided if I want to go, but I'll think about it. My husband has agreed to let me go though. He says that I should grab this opportunity. Hmm.. but what about the kids???

Anyway, I met an old friend at KLCC today. I think I last met her when I was in high school. That's about 14 years ago! She hasn't changed much though. Except that she is pregnant with her second child. Congratulations RMH.

And today, I was asked this question, "Bila nak tambah lagi?" (literally means, when are you planning to have another child??) I could just smile.